Very sad part of my Life - Loss of Dad 30/07/1999

Now I have to share some thing about my dad, he was very hard working person in our village. As I know he never spend money for unnecessary things. Obviously he spends right time for right things like he gifted bicycle, when I joined secondary schooling at Tiruchengode. After long time our family never had any domestic home appliances, at first he spend money for that in the year 1995 for gas connection. And followed by next year brought wet grinder. That time mom got relief from smokes and very happy for welcome changes of dad. But only the thing our demand is that TV. Dad told all time, once he will buy both of us won’t study well. But due to frequent compulsion of us finally he brought big 21” inch Onida TV in the year 1998. Also brought it new TVS XL that two wheeler is his dreams I think so, yes once brought new TVS within few months itself it was theft by someone in market. There after he was very upset mentally and day by day his behaviour was totally changed. Abnormally he was afraid unnecessary things, at lost he took pesticide and recovered after one month. Later on within few days itself got the same worst behaviour again, finally we put him nature curing place at Kuttraalam. After few months somewhat recovered. But in those times no one face such situations, what our family faced it. We lost our money, happiness almost everything in our family among our close relatives. In that all those helps done by uncle and grandfather only. But controlling of dad only me, since he never listen any of others. Even food also I used to give then only he will eat otherwise wont, likewise days going on very sadly. Daily he sleeps with me in our outside cottage, in that day night (30.07.1999) when I awake for go to piss, found above my bad my dad foots touching my head. That was big shock he was hanged himself from the roof by using steel wire. I shouted loudly and cried, then my mom and brother came from house and seen it. That was the moment I lost all my hopes of life, since no one had such a experience at the age of 15. There after I never cry due to very hard incident of my dad loss, which makes my heart very hard.

There after I am not getting interested to pray Gods. I go temple along with my mom that’s it. I know my dad loved me more than my mom and brother. Now I am really missing my dad when someone telling about his/her dad.